The perks of being a blogger.  You just can't stop doing something if you love doing it.  

After meeting up with my best friend Kharlo, I just didn't know where to go.  I just want to hangout on a nice quiet place... Somewhere I can have an unlimited access to the internet and grab something sweet. But not too sweet.  And I remember Go Nuts Donuts (Abreeza Ayala Mall).  Good thing they now have wifi connection.

I entered the store and noticed a few people already eating their orders.  One of the customers talked to the manager and shared how their new product tastes like.  I resumed on looking at the available donuts.  Just to make the story shorter, I somewhat was able to but* myself in the convo of being a blogger... Well just being friendly and wanted to have a lil conversation... And I end up with three donuts.  Two of which I ordered and one, on the house!  So happy I got to taste their newest Cookie Butter Donut. 

It took me a while to grab a bite even though I'm sooo excited to do so.  I just got busy sharing it over Davao Blogger's group page on facebook, on my timeline, twitter, and instagram. 

And here it is!

I'm really a sweet tooth and I know my taste very well.  What's amazing with this doughnut is that it isn't powerfully sweet.

  

It's easy on the tastebuds.  

The topping is creamy and thick.  

It doesn't overpower the doughnut.  

It's safe to pair with a sweet drink.

Good for those sweet conscious people.

Remember that the calories are still there... But this seems to me like a guilt-free treat if you know your portion.

I love this flavor!  Because I'm not in to super sweet doughnuts.  This is just a must to pair with any kind of drink.  Not to mention that you've treated yourself already with Speculoos Cookie Butter.  Isn't that the best treat? 

Because I'm impressed with this flavor, I wrote this after I've tried Cookie Butter.  Definitely will recommend this to my parents who are not in to sweets. 

Lately, I'm obsessing on eating in coffee shops.  I just like the ambiance, free wifi, and food.  But what I love in this place is people watching.  Most of the time I over hear them with their conversations, about work, family, school, and even legal issues.

Today, I get to reminisce my school life.  I think its always school that I get to think of these days.  I don't know if I actually miss it since I rarely did perform well at school. Up until now, I can't seem to point out how I graduated.  I'm not that bad, but I don't perform seriously, strive or do best even.

I remember going out with some of my closest friends back when I was still in ADDU. All I get to remember is eating and hanging out with them during breaks.  Though those memories hurt me.  I think its because I really didn't fit in.  I'm the type who's contented with a small group and never really got in to the hype of watching UAAP, gadgets, gossip, even academics.  I think it was pretty loud and I prefer to tone down.  And worse, the best friend whom I treated as a sister "dumped" me out of her life for a mistake that I never did.  I guess college life at ADDU was painful because of that, and I never wanted to talk about it anymore with anyone (yah, except today). 

I did got a chance to re-live college life as I transfer to another school.  I was carrying with me a bunch of lessons, well about my love life and giving value to myself.  But I separated to people even more, only gaining (again) just a few close ones.  I stayed away from the loud, active group and found comfort to people who are somewhat like me.  I guess the improvements I had at UM are: I felt more accepted and comfortable, I gained my self-esteem back.  And... I really didn't care who I am to others.

I do have regrets, such as this big chocolate cake I'm munching on right now.  But it doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it.  I just have to let go of those regrets, move on, be better.  That's life, right?

I don't mean to backbite or anything, this is just an observation and reflection.

Sometimes, people are driven by insecurities.  Some are living with it most of their lives and some living against it, doing what they can to cover it up.

As a reflection of WHO I WAS, I was too insecure that I withdraw myself from anything that interests me (hobbies, contests, crafts).  I think I deprived myself from the things that would help me grow because I was too busy comparing and putting myself down.  It was such a messed up head and even a way to live life.  Sometimes I think its too late to do it all over again, be who I should be.  That was insecurity, letting your self-esteem hit rock bottom.

I'm not saying that I'm better than the others, but I see it plain bad.

SOME people are too busy spying on other people's lives.  These people watch for what others have... well, materially.  Maybe they're just unaware or in denial that they are insecure.  What's bad about it I think is that they are chasing other people's lives, some even wanting more than what they can actually have.  It's not only insecurities, its being materialistic too.

I can say that I'm materialistic because I compulsively buy what I want, I get what I want... but I don't envy and use other people.  If ever I do want something, it is because I know what I want, what suits me best.

Oh well, there's no other cure to this but "self-cure".  Who am I to intervene with their lives.  Just, observing... saying.

Idle with blogging for a long time already and I can say that there are just no creative juices coming in, or even the inspiration to write something.  Even if it's somewhat difficult to admit, but I'm bumming around lately.  Yes, I do have a job, but I just don't feel like it is one.  I know I have the choice to change how things are right now, but I'm too lazy or maybe afraid of some change.  

I have so many ideas about my life but I'm not that thrilled to step out of my comfort zone. I want to study again or maybe venture another path... but I don't think its because I want it badly or that I'm passionate about it...  Maybe I just want it to kill the boredom.  I don't have everything (I know some people thing that I do and honestly I don't), but I can say I'm comfortable with what I have.

Well, it has always been like that.  Even when I was still schooling.  I'm pretty much contented of the way things are, that means I just don't go striving.  Hmmm... so what do you call that?  Is it a happy-go-lucky-type-of-person?  Or just plain lazy?  

So, what keeps me busy?  Well, pretty much, just work, love life, and leisure. 

And oh... I'm still thinking about another business.  It's difficult to think it through, specially now adays, everything's out. Oh I just need something to do... I somewhat feel bad about myself. I think I'm going stupid not doing anything worthwhile.