Today, I get to reminisce my school life. I think its always school that I get to think of these days. I don't know if I actually miss it since I rarely did perform well at school. Up until now, I can't seem to point out how I graduated. I'm not that bad, but I don't perform seriously, strive or do best even.
I remember going out with some of my closest friends back when I was still in ADDU. All I get to remember is eating and hanging out with them during breaks. Though those memories hurt me. I think its because I really didn't fit in. I'm the type who's contented with a small group and never really got in to the hype of watching UAAP, gadgets, gossip, even academics. I think it was pretty loud and I prefer to tone down. And worse, the best friend whom I treated as a sister "dumped" me out of her life for a mistake that I never did. I guess college life at ADDU was painful because of that, and I never wanted to talk about it anymore with anyone (yah, except today).
I did got a chance to re-live college life as I transfer to another school. I was carrying with me a bunch of lessons, well about my love life and giving value to myself. But I separated to people even more, only gaining (again) just a few close ones. I stayed away from the loud, active group and found comfort to people who are somewhat like me. I guess the improvements I had at UM are: I felt more accepted and comfortable, I gained my self-esteem back. And... I really didn't care who I am to others.
I do have regrets, such as this big chocolate cake I'm munching on right now. But it doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it. I just have to let go of those regrets, move on, be better. That's life, right?